Kelly Osbourne has never been shy to come forth and voice her struggles with addiction. Back when she relapsed in April after nearly four years of sobriety, she opened up to the world about her experience. In a recent interview with Red Table Talk, the Fashion Police actress revealed how her relationship with substance misuse had begun when she was merely 13 years old.
After having tonsillitis surgery when she was a teen, Osbourne was prescribed Vicodin (hydrocodone/acetaminophen) to help with the pain.
“I kept getting sick, and I had a really bad case of tonsillitis. So they ended up having to give me some crazy surgery, and then after that, they gave me Vicodin. And that was all I needed,” she told Red Table Talk co-hosts Jada Pinkett Smith, Adrienne Banfield-Norris, and Willow Smith.
Osbourne, 36, remembered liking Vicodin because the painkiller helped silenced her anxiety and self-doubt, even if only in a temporary way. She went from having every voice in her head being like “You’re fat, you’re ugly, you’re not good enough, no one likes you, you don’t deserve this, people only like you because of who your parents are.” to a sudden and welcome silence. Every single voice in her head was silenced, and she felt like life hugged her, she explained.
However, Osburne started looking for other substances to relieve anxiety. She continued searching for substances that would give her the same feeling as Vicodin had. After that, Osbourne felt very confident in everything. She also talked about how then very quickly she went from Vicodin to Percocet, from Percocet to heroin eventually, because it was cheaper.
The Osbournes fame also admitted that she was never sober, well into her adulthood. She did “nothing” sober. She never went to work sober and never went to dinner sober.
When it comes to regrets, the actress believes that her long-term addiction robbed her of some beautiful life experiences. “I feel very behind, as a woman. I would’ve loved to be married and have children by now. But that wasn’t what was in the cards for me, and I would’ve been no kind of mother at all. Because I was like that crazy addict that would say, ‘Oh yeah, I’ll just stop doing drugs when I get pregnant.’ I’m like, that’s insane that I would ever even think that! That’s not normal,” she said.
When she relapsed a little over a month ago, Osbourne got vulnerable with her fans. “This is a little hard for me to talk about, but I’ve always promised you that I will always be honest with you about where I’m at and what’s going on in my road to recovery. I relapsed. Not proud of it. But I am back on track,” the star took to her Instagram story to share the news with her followers.
She continued that she just wanted to tell her fans the truth because she didn’t want to lie. She also thanked her fans for their support and love and promised them that they would hear from her soon.